Cancer Journey

I am thankful for a cancer diagnosis.

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I am thankful for a cancer diagnosis. Good morning! Hope your Thanksgiving was a great time to connect with family and friends and recount why you are thankful. I am thankful that on March 9th, 2010 I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lymphoma. Does it sound strange that I am so thankful for receiving a stage 4 cancer diagnosis? It may, but it’s true. Right from the beginning God worked in my heart to see cancer as a blessing and not a curse. The months following that diagnosis were filled with fears, anxieties but HOPE always won out. His promised always proved true. Here are some of the biggest lessons I learned. 1. Perspective. With only God’s help I was able to see a cancer diagnosis as a way to grow in my faith, allow God to love on me and choose to not complain or say, “why me?” Instead…

Cancer Journey

Have You Put Your Hope In 2013?

As the ball was just about to drop, I was sitting there reflecting.  I was thinking about how people have been wishing 2012 good-bye because of some disappointments, hard times, tragedies, etc.  I found myself doing the same thing.  Why is it that just because the clock strikes midnight and a new year begins do we all of a sudden have this unbelievable faith and hope that 2013 will bring us something great, different or new?  Then I thought you know what, the changing to a new year has nothing to do with how different my life will be.  Putting my hope in a new year is not where I should be putting my hope.   Lamentations 3:22-23 say The faithful love of the LORD never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. So this is telling me that I need to put MY HOPE in the LORD.  Every morning…

Parenting

Healthy Relationships

How do you keep a Healthy Connection to your kids? Here are a few things I do to keep the lines of communication open. 1. Mother & Daughter or Son Journal.  I have a notebook for each child.  I will write a note to them or ask them questions and they will write back. This gives them time to consider their answers and respond on their own time.  I notice I get more thought filled answers than just a quick yes, no or I don’t know. 2. Tuck Them in at Night. Yes, that’s right.  My kids are teenagers but I always tuck them in at night.  It looks a lot different than when they were elementary aged..no longer do I sing them to sleep, but I NEVER miss a night to touch base with them before they head off to bed.  I ask 2 questions.. What was the best…

Spiritual

Keep on writing? Sure, why not?

Keep on writing? Sure, why not? Written October 31, 2012 About a month ago I had my 20 yr class reunion.  When I first got the invite I was really excited about going. I wanted to see my old friends and reconnect.  As the date became closer and closer I was starting to second guess going.  It was kind of like I was getting attacked..Satan reminding me of the foolish, naive girl I was 20 yrs ago.  Reminding me of some of the choices I had made that I wasn’t so proud of.  Then I started hearing..well what do you have to show for your self anyway..you aren’t that great..what wonderful accomplishments have you done?? Luckily I have learned to pick up on the voice of my accuser (Satan) and pushed past all those lies in my head and go to the reunion.  When I got there it was wonderful…

Cancer Journey

The Everlasting God

The Everlasting God   This past week has been more physically challenging.  Increased nausea, tiredness and achy   I feel more aware of it today.  I had a friend just stop this evening. I mentioned my symptoms to her. She began to pray over me, using God’s Word…my tears started to flow. It’s amazing how The Word of God can cut through and minister to a person’s soul.  As she prayed all I could hear was, “you are the Everlasting God, You do not grow faint, You don’t grow weary!”  Oh how faint, weak and weary I can be.  Even sometimes, I accept it and stay there stuck…thinking about my symptoms or other circumstances in life.  BUT when I choose to speak God’s Word, remind myself of who HE is…then the healing comes! I am so grateful for a God who is SO faithful to me-even to send someone over at 9pm…

Cancer Journey

God Blows My Mind!

God Blows My Mind! I continue to be amazed at God’s faithfulness and timing!  I had a chemo treatment yesterday.  Before treatment I am always praying that God might bring someone into my treatment room that I can minister to.  He did it yesterday!  I was able to have a roommate who was struggling with physical symptoms from chemo.  As I was plastered to my recliner in my Benadryl stupor, the Lord kept saying…pray for her. So I asked if I could and she said yes. So I took a few minutes to share my story/testimony and prayed over her.  I was glad that I was able to help and felt like God answered my prayer. BUT then a visitor stopped in who knew the woman in the chair next to me to say hi to her. She also looked at me and said that she saw me before and…

Cancer Journey

6 month check up September 25,2012

6 month check up September 25,2012 Written Oct 3, 2012 7:02am Had a pre-chemo 6 month check up last week with lab draw. That went well. It was just routine..but what happened before my appointment made me again in awe of God’s perfect timing and confirmation of one of His many calls on my life.  I don’t know if you have read all of my earlier journal entries or not. One of the first things that I heard God tell me after my diagnosis two and one-half years ago…is that I had a choice!  I could choose to cry, complain and be depressed about the Lymphoma diagnosis OR I could see that I was chosen to have cancer. God ENTRUSTED me with that diagnosis..so that I could use it for HIS purpose! I chose the latter.  Why? Because I trust Him! I know this life is only fleeting and what…

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Brag On The Lord

Written Oct 12, 2010 8:27pm “Give thanks to the Lord and proclaim His greatness.  Let the whole world know what He has done.”  Psalm 105:1 I am giving thanks for a negative PET scan, Salvation, the gift of life and the blessing of my family. Please join me in bragging on the Lord.  Post something you are thankful for in my guestbook. Medical update….  I continue to feel better!  I have labs and see Dr Goksel on the 25th of this month to discuss maintenance planning and the future. Love Kim