Cancer Journey

I am thankful for a cancer diagnosis.

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I am thankful for a cancer diagnosis. Good morning! Hope your Thanksgiving was a great time to connect with family and friends and recount why you are thankful. I am thankful that on March 9th, 2010 I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lymphoma. Does it sound strange that I am so thankful for receiving a stage 4 cancer diagnosis? It may, but it’s true. Right from the beginning God worked in my heart to see cancer as a blessing and not a curse. The months following that diagnosis were filled with fears, anxieties but HOPE always won out. His promised always proved true. Here are some of the biggest lessons I learned. 1. Perspective. With only God’s help I was able to see a cancer diagnosis as a way to grow in my faith, allow God to love on me and choose to not complain or say, “why me?” Instead…

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Final chemo treatment

Final chemo treatment Written Oct. 22, 2012 This past week went amazingly well. I had looked back in my online calendar that I “charted” during my treatments 6 months ago and noticed a supplement that I had taken during chemo that I left out this time. I started taking it Monday eve and I did so much better. No nausea at all, no leg aches and very little fatigue!  I am so thankful for a better week!  So tonight I am wide awake! I have laid in bed for an hour…trying to sleep…I should know better. This journal entry has been in my head most of the day and I have been putting it off…because sometimes I just don’t want to experience the emotions that will come with it. BUT I know how God speaks…and He won’t let me rest until I write. Last week at chemo the nurses mentioned…

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The Everlasting God

The Everlasting God   This past week has been more physically challenging.  Increased nausea, tiredness and achy   I feel more aware of it today.  I had a friend just stop this evening. I mentioned my symptoms to her. She began to pray over me, using God’s Word…my tears started to flow. It’s amazing how The Word of God can cut through and minister to a person’s soul.  As she prayed all I could hear was, “you are the Everlasting God, You do not grow faint, You don’t grow weary!”  Oh how faint, weak and weary I can be.  Even sometimes, I accept it and stay there stuck…thinking about my symptoms or other circumstances in life.  BUT when I choose to speak God’s Word, remind myself of who HE is…then the healing comes! I am so grateful for a God who is SO faithful to me-even to send someone over at 9pm…

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God Blows My Mind!

God Blows My Mind! I continue to be amazed at God’s faithfulness and timing!  I had a chemo treatment yesterday.  Before treatment I am always praying that God might bring someone into my treatment room that I can minister to.  He did it yesterday!  I was able to have a roommate who was struggling with physical symptoms from chemo.  As I was plastered to my recliner in my Benadryl stupor, the Lord kept saying…pray for her. So I asked if I could and she said yes. So I took a few minutes to share my story/testimony and prayed over her.  I was glad that I was able to help and felt like God answered my prayer. BUT then a visitor stopped in who knew the woman in the chair next to me to say hi to her. She also looked at me and said that she saw me before and…

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Reality Check!

Reality Check! Written Oct 5, 2012 11:37am It’s amazing what I can forget in just a few short 6 months!   I had my maintenance chemo treatment on Tuesday. That day usually leaves me feeling pretty mellow..the Benadryl I am given does that.  I shared  Wednesday on Facebook how having steroids in my system and 2 cups of coffee on an empty stomach jump started my day!  I went through Wednesday feeling pretty great.  Thursday not so bad either! In fact, I was starting to say to myself..man I feel really awesome..why was I dreading these chemo treatments again??  Then Thursday eve at my daughters volleyball game I started to remember…the steroid high…and the steroid low!  It was like a switch went off and all that energy I had just left my body in an instant.  Today I covered for the school nurse for an hour. It was then I was fully…

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6 month check up September 25,2012

6 month check up September 25,2012 Written Oct 3, 2012 7:02am Had a pre-chemo 6 month check up last week with lab draw. That went well. It was just routine..but what happened before my appointment made me again in awe of God’s perfect timing and confirmation of one of His many calls on my life.  I don’t know if you have read all of my earlier journal entries or not. One of the first things that I heard God tell me after my diagnosis two and one-half years ago…is that I had a choice!  I could choose to cry, complain and be depressed about the Lymphoma diagnosis OR I could see that I was chosen to have cancer. God ENTRUSTED me with that diagnosis..so that I could use it for HIS purpose! I chose the latter.  Why? Because I trust Him! I know this life is only fleeting and what…

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6 month check up!

6 month check up! Written Mar 29, 2012 3:03pm Hi everyone! I had my 6 month check up with labs. Everything is looking great!  I will start my 3rd cycle of maintenance chemo on Tuesday, April 3rd.  I will have 1 chemo a week for 4 weeks.  This is still the IV infusion drug Rituxan.  After this 4 week cycle I only have one more cycle of 4 in October and then I am DONE! Yippee!

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Maintenance Chemo

Maintenance Chemo Written Oct 3, 2011 12:50pm Hey everyone!  I have labs and an oncologist appointment on Wednesday.  I am scheduled to start maintenance chemo on Friday.  I will have 1 chemo treatment IV infusion a week for 4 weeks then not again until April 2012.  Please pray for protection as we will be entering the cold and flu season while I start my treatments.  During this time it is also very easy for fears and doubts to creep in!  I pray I take all thoughts captive to Christ.  He is my healer, sustainer, protector. Thanks so much! Love Kim

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Public Speaking

Written Apr 28, 2011 1:56pm I had 4th Rituxan treatment Tuesday, which means I get a break until October!!!  All went well.  I speak tonight at the Cancer Survivor Benefit.  I’d appreciate prayers!  This is a first for me!  I’ve shared with many people either one on one or in small group settings but never in front of a crowd like this.  I pray that I would be able to bring encouragement to others but mostly that my words would bring Honor and Glory to God.  Thanks 🙂

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Removing My Port

Written Apr 22, 2011 5:01am My 3rd Rituxan treatment went well on Tuesday. I then went to my surgeon’s office to have my port removed.  I was not looking forward to that at all.  So ya I’m a nurse and if I would have been the nurse taking care of me I would have totally been all into checking the whole procedure out!  BUT I was the patient and wasn’t too thrilled about hearing my scar tissue cut away from my port/catheter.  So anyways, I was struggling with not passing out (even though i was already flat on my back)….it was more the sounds I hearing, but as I layed there I began to pray.  I then remembered the book I read, Heaven is for Real,  I recalled how the little boy described when he was in Heaven that as people prayed the Holy Spirit would shoot down power to those asking for help.  So I began…